Compromising self for others

[overcastcrystal17]

I'm sorry, but I have to start this thread because I need to say this to someone. It is funny how people expect you to do things, even if you physically cannot do them. I have had to deal with a terrible condition for the past four years, and people still act like I have control of things, but I don't. Everyday comes with struggle and sacrifice, and only I can see what it is doing to me. Only I know to what extent my condition is controlling me, and despite the fact that I practically radiate my pain, only two people really believe me, the rest make it harder to deal with by each passing day. If I had cancer, at least people would understand, with this, I'm dying and they think I am making it up or purposely doing this to myself. "Just shut your eyes," she says, if it were only that simple. I'm sorry, but what kind of an idiot would really think a person would make something like this up. Again, I'm sorry, but right now this is the only way to communicate when I feel like I'm screaming and no one can hear me. After four years, I think I deserve the benefit of the doubt, at least from my family, and not be asked to do stuff that will cause irreversible damage to my body. To a normal functioning person, it seems like nothing, but it is most definitely not for me. Can I just be somewhere I can live, Universe?

[brokenquill92]

I understand today I fainted AGAIN and because other than being blind I don't look like there's anything physically wrong with me, people act I can just some how shut off being hydrocephalic and the fainting spells will go away. But unfortunately unless u have a certain condition it's really hard for others to be empathetic and as far as I'm concerned sympathy only makes it worse

[teehee100]

Overcast-chan, I'm sorry that people are treating you that way. The sad thing is there are people who make stuff up for attention. Ou are not one of them, so it is sad to hear that people think you are. Sends hug, if you're ok with that, and virtual candy. I hope that things will,be ok.

[Chameleon]

I'm sorry to hear about your sickness, Overcast, and how people are treating you. I know myself how unfairly people can treat you, but not at that level. I hope it will get better.

(My brother is in treatment for leukemia.)

[overcastcrystal17]

Thanks guys. Sorry about your brother, Chameleon, I hope modern medicine can help him. And you as well, Brokenquill, odiously there is something wrong, and whatever it is you can't just get over it. These things don't just go away, as much as we would want them to.
I don't want sympathy necessarily, but that would be better than disbelief. Sympathy makes me feel awkward, automatic assumption that I'm lying makes me angry, though. I mean, I get normal people, it's out of there realm of knowledge and they can't understand, but a doctor is supposed to help you. Maybe I'm expecting too much, because there only human. There! I got it figured out. Sorry.
It would be nice if there was someone who knew how I felt so that I could have someone who understands, but I don't actually want that to happen because than someone else would know the pain I experience, and no one deserves that. I know that my allergy isn't all that uncommon, but it manifests in different ways in different people, mine just happens to be in a really horrible way. But at least I'm not wearing a hazmat suit. My lame attempt at humor.
Teehee, virtual chocolates are appreciated, though it would be amazing if I had some in real life too.
And you can call me Crystal, everyone does, though being known as overcast is nice too, because it's a big part of who I am.

[dracosfairmaiden]

I'm sorry about your sickness. I have thyroid disease myself so I get it. It's nothing serious. I'm on medication right now, and it's currently controlled. But at it's worst, people came up and asked if I was anorexic. I was 97 pounds when I was diagnosed at 17. I'm 20 now and weight 137. That was a tough time for me. I hope things go better for you.

[Kitty279]

Crystal, I'm sorry to hear that. It has to be hard for you, particularly when doctors and the own family aren't as understanding as they are supposed to be. I guess from these it is harder to take than from strangers who simply don't know the first thing about you or your problems. It's sad that even these don't support you as you deserve.

Sadly, I can't do anything than cross my fingers that it will get better or can be healed one day. **huggles** And if you need someone to talk to, I think here are enough people with health problems who would understand how you feel about it all. We had a thread about that some time ago and I was shocked how many were having health problems.

[jaffaninja]

This is one of the things I love about this site. The community we have here. I mean, it was created for RtB fics, but it's like it's become something more now. We all support each other and do our best to understand and empathise with each other. I don't think I've seen anything like this anywhere else.

[Kitty279]

There are some boards like this one, but as far as I know, it's the exception, not the rule.

That's why we sacrificed the fics to be able to keep the boards, after all - the great community that has developed here is worth continuing and the reason we all feel so welcome here. It's a huge credit to the members of this community, for they are what makes a website good or bad, a community aggressive and cynical, even bullying, or compassionate and fun-loving. A good many of us have shared private matters already that we'd not post elsewhere, and have found understanding. So I think it's time for a big 'thank you' to this wonderful circle of HP fans!